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taken in beijing >:]
Jesus, please help me with my TAWG. okay i know these days, i still get revelation, but i guess my soul isn't always that quiet D: but it's okay, Jesus, i'm putting in more effort than i used to. [: and i know i will hear from you in my own time. and Daddy God i commit my whole self into your hands. Just like how Joshua and the Israelites trusted in you when they conquered Jericho, it was because of their faith in You, by doing simple things like marching around the city each day for seven days. Normal people would have ridiculed at that, yet they trusted in their Mighty God, and they did just that. and Yes, what they believed in took place, because they sowed their seed of faith in a mighty God who will never go back on His words. Lord, let me be like them, to trust in you and be obedient to everything, even the insignificant things. In Jesus' name i pray, Amen. ♥
and Mighty to Save is an awesome song! ♥
Mighty to Save
Everyone needs compassion
A love that's never failing
Let mercy fall on me
Everyone needs forgiveness
The kindness of a Savior
The hope of nations
(Chorus:)
Savior
He can move the mountains
My God is mighty to save
He is mighty to save
Forever
Author of Salvation
He rose & conquered the grave
Jesus conquered the grave
So take me as You find me
All my fears & failures
Fill my life again
I give my life to follow
Everything I believe in
Now I surrender (I surrender)
(Chorus:) (2x)
Savior
He can move the mountains
My God is mighty to save
He is mighty to save
Forever
Author of Salvation
He rose & conquered the grave
Jesus conquered the grave
(Bridge:) (2x)
Shine Your light &
Let the whole world see
We're singing
For the glory
Of the risen King
Jesus
(Chorus)
You're the Savior
You can move the mountains
Lord You are mighty to save
You are mighty to save
Forever
Author of Salvation
You rose & conquered the grave
Yes You conquered the grave
(Bridge:)
I LOVE JESUS COS HE'S SO AWESOME, NOTHING COMPARES TO HIMMMMMM!♥♥♥ | | |
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my twinnie dear is so awesome <3
and just now my korkor suddenly asked if i'm okay today! O:
initially he was like, "are you okay? you seem so sad today."
i was like, "huh? i'm okay haha"
later on, he said i would normally not take medicine on my own.
and i was like, 'daddy told me to take, cos he said i have flu. He gave me medicine in the morning!"
HAHAHA. k at least have flu to cover up if i start crying [:
and "J will row the boat for us" :D
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[from axtreal.lj]
k i dont know why. i'm ranting again? trying not to. but sometimes i wonder why i hang out with so many peeps, and i never felt really close to some. i can be idk. k don't feel like ranting her, but still.
and mommy says i can't go to church until syf's over, cos of sunday trng ): and i already can't go for prayer meeting cause of dance prac as well.
i hope i don't drift further away from my Daddy God, cos technically, if i spend time with Him, i'll maintain my relationship with Him. though i think i often compromise :/ gahhh. sorry Daddy. i really love you ♥
i wonder if i will really miss church...
and i just get so :/ now. (love you shanping, and you're in my smallie group for pm [: )
k thankyou daddy God for lovely juniors. audrey chia, drina ng and vanessa koh [: and many others too, whom i'm dancing same parts with 'em, batchies like kaiqing, yangxi, JASMINE and juniors like lauren, weiqing, sonia. and for sueen who isn't dancing with me, but still so lovely.
Jesus, take the wheel of my life. guess i know in times like this, maybe i'm just being tested. just being idk. but i commit my life to you, and help me daddy God, to be able to walk close with you and not drift too far from you. i love you always, and thankyou for your grace and mercy in my life. i love youuuuu. and the best of all (it's probably the best thing in my friendship) is that i've got joline as a gift from you. thankyou for joline, and i pray you'll help my twin in everything, her walk with you, her issues in life and school. Amen.
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HEH twinnieeee <3
thanks for being so awesome.
i don't know! wish you and i were off in the same church D:
maybe we can start anew at a church somewhere [:
ILOVEYOUALWAYS<3
p.s our hair is so messy in the photo! MERRY FINGERRRR :D
(and remember the first time we did merry finger to nannypee, she was so irritated cos she thought we were teasing her! and we got the merry finger from the weird lecture! and the woman lecturer keep telling us about her husband O: ahaha! and ohyeah that's how we became the CLONES :D )
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Daddy God, please help me... i'm just so :/ here D:
sometimes i wonder why it's so hard to fit in, trying to find someone who really understands, only to fail. trying to find someone who understands, other than my Daddy God, and sometimes, even everyone else fail. but i'll still have my dearest BFF, who is my Daddy''s gift to me, even if she ain't perfect. love you jolinegoh BF♥
idk larh. but yeah. it;s like sometimes i really feel out, despite everything. yes i know, you'll say i ahve audrey lee, charmaine oh and even huier. (yeah jessica and siming were like "yeah i thought you have the tennis girl", and yujia was like "yeah i thought you have charmaine and audrey", when i told them how i ended up with helin as my roommate for graces) but sometimes y'know it's just different. trying to find someone just like yourself, only to find you losing yourself.
like, yeah i have charmaine and audrey. it's just they aren't really the kind i'll consider my confidante. like idk. and like i wanted to room with siyan, cos i dont know, though i don't talk to her about personal stuff, but she's the kind that might understand. it turned out, yanquan swapped with helin, now my room full of scholars ): i dont mind siyan, don't mind qinyan, but i don't want a room full of scholars ):
and i guess what siming said today was quite true. yes i'm close to siyan, but we have out different gangs. she won't mind the Chinese scholars cos she's from china. i mind sometimes. my gang = charmaine audrey huier. her gang= i dont know. it's just our gangs aren't the same even when we're close. like siming was saying today, "me and my friend, jenyi, are close. but we have different gangs." and jessica was like " i dont know who to room with. i'm close to yuanyuh but we have like different gangs. she's llike with hanyi yuhe they all..." i know! yes my gang is with charmaine audrey huier. but this time round, i wanted something different. wanted to try get closer to siayn/ qinyan, only to find me losing myself.
yes sometimes i may not even be myself with audrey and charmaine, cos idk cos we dont share a lot about personal stuff. and with siyan is like, i always don't dare to eat lunch with her cos i'm afraid she invites all the other china scholars along. yeah, you could say i care about looks. i dont know. it's not all that either.
sometimes i just tried searching for someone who'll understand me, who'll give me a chance to speak, and not to expect me to just keep listening. sometimes i try looking for one who makes me feel at home, only to find no one else does this as well as my bf.
joline, sometimes i feel v torn up. i feel really lonely even when i'm with people. sometimes i wished i could shut the world out, cos i feel so lonely even when i'm with audrey/charmaine/other peeps.
and right now, i really don't know. feel like just quitting syf. yes i know it's my only chance. but it sucks really. wished that maybe i could be in jasmine's shoes instead. to have already taken measurements for costume, only to be kicked out of the what-little-part-of-the-dance she has, and now has no parts in it. wished i could pon sunday practices. wished i didn't have to worry about increasing dance trainings in months to come. it's just so draining D:
Jesus, my El Shaddai. you're my all sufficient one, all i ever needed. help me Jesus. cos Daddy God, i feel so dry now. feel so lost. feel so stretched. feel so weary. feel like just quitting. Daddy God, help me... ):
and thank you Daddy, for my bf joline♥ and thankyou for always being there for me♥♥
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My Resolutions/ Wishes
GOD
#attend New Beginnings course[:
#get baptised[:
#to be consistent in my time alone with God
